Okay Lex, since you insist...I guess it has been a while.  During the semester things tend to get neglected, my apologies. 

Not much has changed however, so this may be disappointing!  Still working on the deception research--it's going fairly well.  Today I beat my head off of the wall a few times trying to decide if the thing was sensitive and reliable enough.  I'm no closer to an answer now than I was then...I really feel it was time well spent...

On a more personal note, I had the opportunity to spend the night out with an old but close friend...we hadn't seen each other in some time and there is some history there, so I have to admit I was a little nervous about seeing him.  But there he was, and I remembered why a few years ago he was the best friend I ever had.....Now that I've had time to think about it, I'm torn between getting involved (strictly in friendship sense) and just leaving well enough alone.  It's a difficult choice to make when your past was once the sole reason for your every unhappiness...how do you love someone from a distance and still be close???

It was inevitable that while researching deception, my own deceptions as well as those I've received would come back to haunt me...It's clear to me, and has been since the start, why I would choose this topic.  I thought, at the time, that it would be therapuetic.  Now I'm not so sure...uncovering old skeletons is never any fun but I still have no idea why people lie...and the worst part of it is that noone seems to know either.  All the evidence shows that deception only further isolates us even if a person's motivation may be to preserve the relationship and maintain their own self-esteem.  i don't know--I thought i could get some thoughts together on this but i think that right now my thoughts are too personally involved...best that I just sleep on it and come back to it later...

To my friends out there--just b/c I'm having a moment with this and I don't forget that you have been there through it all--Thanks for the constant encouragement and words of wisdom!  If this thing ever gets published (the research, that is) I know who I shall dedicate it to!

much love dudesses! K

well, here we are at the start of a new semester...new guy...new perspective on life.  things are great and i hope they stay that way. 

on a less upbeat note, i will be twenty-eight in ten short days!  getting old sucks!  such is life! 

goodnight! k